I think the second nuclear war is getting closer and just like every war that preceded it a lot stunned Europeans are going to glance up from their riots and ask, wait, how did this happen?
Saturday, October 1, 2022
Friday, September 30, 2022
I used to get on a 747 and fly across the Pacific 2 or 4 times a month for 18 years. I don't really miss the journey but seeing this by Jewel brought it all back. She was on my first ipod. I can't believe how much Korea changed over the course of those 18 years. I think it was for the better, their mileage may differ. They joined us in the 21st century but I suspect they left a lot of what made them behind. On the gripping hand, a lot of that was Japan and I know they were happy to leave that behind. People alive today have no idea what a destructive force Japan was in Asia. The Koreans remember.
I really miss San Diego, Encinitas, Carlsbad. A lot. I miss El Camino Real more than you would know. Robertos was there and so was Pick up Stix. Fast wonderful Mexican food and delicious Chinese fast food not at all like anything you could buy in China. I'd say I live in a food desert but I've been there, done that. While this place is arid, it's not a desert. On the other hand, the virus killed off the places of good take-away. We get sushi at Heinens. On the gripping hand, I have most marvelous chef. Life is good.
Tuesday, September 27, 2022
Sunday, September 25, 2022
I was led off tonight in my reading by a reference to Great Zimbabwe and a whole host of wonderful things Africans and their spirit advisors believe about the place. It seems that it was a city that rivaled London in population back around 2000 years ago and was quite the trade emporium. On the other hand I take any stories about prehistoric peoples that never learned to write a written language with the a grain of salt roughly the size of Gibraltar. You have bee hives with more bees in them than many towns or cities but without a written language they remain mute to history. Making up stuff is what fantasists and writers do but it is not history. It is off putting to have some writer lay claim to some sort of civilization that, on the first hand, never discovered any way to record history. Say what we will, true civilizations were writing and recording in the written word over 5000 years ago.
I can watch the occasional show on the history of some nomadic people and listen to the narrator tell the amazing story of their ancestors based on oral tradition. I'm not really a believer of oral tradition. Like many of you I've had way too many garbled messages relayed to me from trusted sources that were, when all is said and done, garbled to a fare thee well. On the gripping hand, I don't have more than a few words from relatives beyond my grandparents. My mother can tell me some things about her great in-laws and great grandparents and there are photos of them on the 600 acre farm they used to own inside the Washington DC beltway but there is nothing of them in writing that has fallen into my hands. I do like the story about how he and his brothers beat the hell out of a lawyer they hated coming out of court one day. My great grandfather was the constable of the county in Maryland where it happened and one of his brothers was killed in a shoot-out somewhere out West where he was a deputy. I have written four volumes of my own history. I'm not sure it will survive but it was there for a brief and shining moment for anyone to read or record.
As you can read, I'm talking about memories within living memory of some people (not really me). I find it impossible to believe tribal myths or anything of pre-historic sub-Saharan Africa before it was investigated by the ones with a written language. I don't think the Egyptians count since they apparently, in 4000 years of written history never went further abroad then Sudan and perhaps Ethiopia. 4000 years hugging the Nile River and basking in total ignorance of the rest of the world. Kind of hard to believe really.
I enjoyed the Dirk Pitt books by Clive Cussler. He had the people of those days sailing treasure and mystery all the way to Texas 2000 years ago. It would be nice to think it happened but the stories that do bear the test of time because they were written down, don't bear out any voyages of exploration outside the Phoenicians and I haven't read any of what they might have written about their voyages thru the Mediterranean and the founding of Carthage. All that I have read of that era was by the Romans or the Greeks. If you have never read Thucydides you missed out on how the world really works. Spoiler, the world works by leveraging the stupidest people in the world into power and then letting them do what the stupidest people in the world like to do. ie, Biden. Oddly enough, it really only takes one single solitary stupid world leader to fuck over the world for all the rest of us. Just one stupid SOB is the equivalent of 2000 megatons of nuclear death delivered wholesale.
On the other hand, my reading tonight did strike a bell and I decided to reread Wilbur Smith's The Angels Weep and the rest of the series. I last/first read them in college during a summer and while I never read any of his other books, those were worth the time.
Some police officers stopped a young woman and put her in a car they left parked on the railroad tracks. If there was justice , all three of the police involved would have their hands cuffed behind their back and be placed in another police car from that jurisdiction of Hell and have another train hit them at the same speed while they experienced the terror of knowing that they were going to die, torn to pieces and scattered over a couple of acres.
Putting the one cop on Admin leave while "investigating" a clear and obvious attempted murder under color of authority is rich. What really sucks about what is called law enforcement in this country is that even if these murderers are sacked, they can still walk into another jurisdiction as sworn officers and be hired as cops again, in your town, in my town.
They deserve to spend 10-23 years in jail at a minimum. They all did it. They all left a young woman they locked in a car on the tracks to die and made no effort to save her.
She survived and all her lawyer has to do now is go to court, show the video and lay claim to the entire town and county as reparations for an evil and horrific crime at the hands of the sworn officers of the law.
Tuesday, September 20, 2022
I have been both reading and writing here and there since my last post and for many of the posts before that one. Blogger is being a pain which disturbs the muse a little bit but I also find that I'm likely repeating the words of others and that was never the intent of this blog. It was in its original intent to communicate with my little pilot and after a number of years the other channels are finally open. Hallelujah!!!.
That said, blogger is being a pain these days in every aspect. It's like they're trying to cut back on the number of free thinkers using their resources to communicate our thoughts outside the bounds of accepted and censored speech. I haven't made the jump to Trump's new locale or Gab or even substack as yet. I may in the future as the politics heat up a little more. I find that I can get what I can consider reliable news and information from the usual sources on the right plus the ones I don't list but go to every day: Instapundit and Daily Mail UK and voxday.
By the accounts I read every day it looks like the world is descending into a darkness it may not climb out of intact. Just how did the West's leaders all decide that the thing to do in a no account Balkan pissing contest was to slit their own throats in so far as Energy, Food, Fertilizer, Minerals and gut their industries to the very breaking point and beyond? How did America seemingly elect an idiot who was always an idiot but is now a senile idiot repudiated by his own White House staff every single time he speaks in public and declares that the US will support Taiwan militarily in the event of a Chinese invasion and that the COVID pandemic is OVER and that he can with the swipe of drool and a pen sign away a trillion $ in student loans and lay them on the backs of the working class who never went to college?
What happened? Well I know. The communists won the long march thru the institutions and they own/control higher education, K-12 education, libraries, most foundations, NPR, PBS, all other broadcast media, the NYT and most newspapers and now they have slowly been replaced in each by the deviants who believe child grooming is the path to the future of America and the World.
Why does the FBI and the DOJ do nothing about the people that actually banged the underage girls at Epstein's island resort? Why do they do nothing about Hunter's laptop? Why do they persist in this stupid vendetta against Trump. Investigated now by everyone who loathes, hates and despises him for 7 years and impeached twice and the STUPID FUCKTARDS have been unable to pin anything on him but they hate him twice as much as they did yesterday and half as much as they will tomorrow.
Things are falling apart in the Blue cities and nobody seems to care or notice. The border isn't there anymore and the libtards react as if somebody dropped a live rattle snake in their lap when a tiny handful of illegals show up in Martha's Vineyard.
Go volunteer to be an election worker and supervise the vote. It's important.
Wednesday, September 14, 2022
The FBI tracked down the CEO of MyPillow in an Arby's drive thru while he was enroute home from a hunting trip and showed a search warrant authorizing them to seize his cellphone. He was permitted to call his lawyer who told him to comply even though.....well, read the story.
Two lessons and thus the irony.
1. The FBI tracked him by his cell phone
2. You should always carry 2 cellphones in your car or at home. I mean, what else do you do with the old cell phone?
Friday, September 9, 2022
Ignorant stupid dangerous idiots. God! Just leave it to the Germans. They have been destroying civilization for 700 years.
What the hell is it with Germans and Europeans who compound stupidity and mindless insane policy every time we turn our back on them? Continental wide European war starting again in 4, 3, 2, 1
One of the things I lost in the bonfire of my life was my copy of Kant's book. I could replace it easily enough but for many years I had used the title page, author page, publisher's page as a place to jot down my own philosophy as it came to me. These started to accumulate on the train from DC to URI. I might ask Chaplain Harvey if he kept them and would send them to me as he has done with many old things I cast off when I was in despair.
What are the odds that any religious being would keep my copy of On the Beautiful and the Sublime?
I sense a very definite NO out of Texas.
Thursday, September 8, 2022
Wednesday, September 7, 2022
The feds ran amok at Mar a Lago to haul out the former Presidents stuff. I was having a conversation wtih a retired flag officer and it called to mind the other ones that I knew well. After the 3rd Fleet commander retired he kept on coming back to the headquarters there on Point Loma and going into the office they kept for him for a number of months, He was my old XO and one of the best officers I ever knew. i learned that like my father, he kept coming in to the office and was simply going through his files. Almost all of them were classified, some were SCI compartmented information and it took the only man allowed to read the file to shred it or return it. My dad spent months after retired from his final job going through the filing cabinets in his basement office and shredding all the ones that were proprietary. VADM Costello was essentially doing the same thing for months after he retired.
That President Trump took documents out of the office that needed to be destroyed, I don't question. At that point each needed to be examined by the holder and either refiled or destroyed. Anybody with even a grain of sense knows how that works and that it takes time.
I know, I can hear the twit saying, "well they weren't his files and he should have left them" and yet the answer is pretty basic. "They were his files."
I just want to say that the same thing does not apply to the Secretary of State. The top secret stuff she had off the nsanet was never hers, didn't belong to her and should not have been in her house. Presidents, for all that they always appear to have a clean desk have to actually SIGN document for them to take effect.
They said they wanted back their weapons. This was a stupid article and not well written. I am almost forced to dig up a copy now of Red Storm Rising and I owe my girl a copy of Das Boot but how do people just put out nonsense like this?
As we are seeing today, without US you only get one chance to stay free and independent. And we also shipped most of our weapons to Ukraine and aren't building anymore because. All those countries like France who used to rely on the bedrock of the US military fighting for their freedom should start to think about what post-Trump really means for them and invest in all those hateful weapons dealers industries. This hasn't been the 20th century for over 22 years and there is nobody in America that would shed a single red corpuscle to bail any country in Europe out of the deep hole it has dug with such smugness and pronounced hatred for America for the last 80 years.
The last time I looked the 173rd Airborne was in Aviano but that was 13 years ago. They might well have left. But that's OK Europe because there will never be another war in Europe.
Saturday, September 3, 2022
Sorry, that was from a movie I watched
What is going on in Europe? When did all Europeans turn totally stupid?
They actually write serious article now slamming Russia for NordvStream slowdowns delivering gas to Europe while at the same exact time hectoring those belligerent Russian bastards for being all bastardy and stuff and then turn right back around to complain about the Russians withholding fuel from poor shivering Europe. I remember when the Btis totally lost their minds after CORPORATE but now all of Europe has wandered into the land dazed and confused and without a clue how stupid they sound.
Putin totally has them by their dangly bits but Europeans seem not to notice. It might have something to do with all the women in government in Europe. Yes, you know you thought the same thing, You know you did. You wondered what kind of idiotic jackasses could bring about 1914 again with the special level of stupid malevolence and twisted evil hate.
Now you know.
As you read on you will see the young lady under who's picture lie the words, The German State is prepared to fight to the last Ukrainian. We have done it before and will do it again!!!
European officials blame Russia for Nord Stream troubles
Russia is deliberately sabotaging the Nord Stream 1 natural gas pipeline to spite the EU, European officials have claimed, questioning Moscow’s explanation for an indefinite delay in restoring service.
State-owned energy giant Gazprom informed its European customers on Saturday that it could not safely resume operations until it had fixed “oil leaks” discovered in a major turbine during a maintenance operation.
Nord Stream was set to come back online just after midnight Saturday morning after three days of maintenance. The leaks, reportedly affecting “cables connected to speed meters of a rotor,” were discovered during a technical inspection with the turbine’s German manufacturer Siemens. Moscow had earlier warned that the pipeline’s operation was threatened by sanctions, which had created a shortage of spare parts.
However, Siemens argued the company had alternate turbines at the compressor station where the leak had been discovered and could use one of those in case of a real emergency. “Such leaks do not normally affect the operation of a turbine and can be sealed on site,” they claimed.
European Commission spokesman Charles Michel condemned what he called Russia’s “use of gas as a weapon,” declaring it would not “change the resolve of the EU” as the bloc works toward “energy independence.”
Commission press service chief Eric Mamer slammed the “fallacious pretenses” he claimed Gazprom had used to shut down the pipeline, holding it up as proof of both their “cynicism” and their “unreliability as a supplier” and suggesting Moscow “prefer[red] to flare gas instead of honoring contracts.”
German parliamentary foreign affairs committee chair Michael Roth denounced the shutdown as “part of Russia’s psychological war against us” and accused President Vladimir Putin of “violat[ing] contracts without scruples….even at the expense of his own economic interests.”
German gas regulator Bundesnetzagentur’s president Klaus Mueller warned Germans that it was “down to each and everyone” to conserve resources in the absence of Russian gas.
The G7 countries agreed on Friday to a price cap for Russian oil, vowing not to provide insurance or other forms of financing to any ship carrying Russian oil above that price, which has yet to be decided, but which participants hope to have put in place by February. Despite several rounds of harsh sanctions, Moscow has made £600 million more from oil sales in June than it did the previous month thanks to soaring energy prices threatening to plunge all of Europe into a depression.
A second natural gas pipeline, Nord Stream 2, was completed earlier this year and could alleviate much of the suffering caused by the slowdown at Nord Stream 1, but it has never been put into service due to sanctions.
Friday, September 2, 2022
Wednesday, August 31, 2022
I was going to title this Just Imagine but changed my mind. However, just imagine you could pick any of 100,000,000 raving leftist loonies to be the national image of your party and you decided to pick this moron. How would that feel? What does this idiot convey? Why choose some idiot so out of touch with Americans that they would be justified in thinking you think all of them are stupid morons? Damn these questions!!!! Am I supposed to speak for all that? Well, yeah, this is the moron and stupid idiot they chose to be the face of the White House that brought us the debacle in Afghanistan and our southern border and gasoline and diesel prices lifting off. This idiot.
Why do Americans put up with this level of stupid and disdain in our public servants?
For over 40 years I have kept books in the trunk of my car. Just a handful that I can try to reread. I liked Anton Myer's Once an Eagle so it's there. I can read all 1200 pages (or skip lightly) over again in the daylight. Ditto Earth by David Brin (unlikely) I totally didn't get it the first time. But, there are many others! Running to thousands of pages, and kindles with a thousand books on them.... I'm ready.
I am prepared to spend up to a week on the side of the road while the nebs nebbish and the police measure angles with a spectrometer and a whistle.
Perhaps it is time to republish the Rules of the Universe.
My favorite one is:
if you are ready, the universe isn't. It abides. It lurks. It waits....until you are unready.
Tuesday, August 30, 2022
England's flagship set sail for the Americas to embrace a loadout and training with the F-35B fighters and made it a good 5 miles into its Trans-Atlantic crossing 5 years after commissioning and came to a sudden and abrupt stop due, as the Admiral claimed to some sort of problem with one of the shafts. Shafts don't come to a sudden and ignominious end. They have little telltale warnings that any engineer can see and stay on top of. Let's go over some of the obvious ones.
1) shaft somehow got bent--never happens unless ship is in extended dry dock.
2) shaft bearing wiped-- easy fix, add some babbit, smooth, and roll on.
3) shaft seal--those are mostly embraced by the design and construction, easy fix= inflate shaft collar.
4) reduction gear--somebody bypassed armory type locks and threw metal in the reduction gear
4 is the killer. The first three you can fix in the middle of the Indian Ocean in 2 days. Reduction gear destruction by throwing Craftsman type tools on top of the reduction gear need a dry dock and months of repair as the shipyard cuts open the hull of the ship and every space between the reduction gears and the atmosphere outside the ship to embrace pulling the ruined gears out and replacing them.
Guess what? There are no "replacements" they have to be built from a cold standing start. That is why the reduction gear covers are locked with the same exact sort of locks that we use to lock up armories and weapons magazines. High Security!
One of the features of multi-culti is how it embraces the disaffected and God DAMN anyone who questions why people who could not pass a nuclear weapons access background investigation are allowed to destroy billion dollar warships with a wrench or a bic lighter.
You see, the thing is, in every particular case, people saw it coming but could do nothing because 'woke' attitudes rule and commonsense is not allowed, encouraged or tolerated. I think the last time I saw it was 1984 when I was legal officer on the Middle East Force Flagship and the Chief Engineer put his foot down and told the CO that none of the 11 firemen or petty officers who popped positive for drugs and were disciplined by the CO at Captain's Mast would be allowed access to the engine rooms until they were put on a plane and sent home and he didn't care if it took him to 50% manning. He'd been there before. He wasn't going to allow them to sabotage his engines which any fool or criminal could do.
If the Prince of Wales suffered reduction gear damage, it's going into dry-dock for a year or more. You see, the thing that none of us CHENGs ever gave any real thought to was that our Chiefs, LPOs and supervisors would tolerate a disaffected punk who could take a couple minutes with a hacksaw and file away industriously on a high security hasp lock a few minutes every watch until it parted under the continuous illicit filing and the bad guys gained access to the reduction gear oil sump because those locks get opened once or at most twice a year for the CHENG to shine a light in them and roll the reduction gear to look for signs of wear, gear lash, etc.
When those ports are opened the old Maintenance Requirement was the CHENG personally checking the gears with all devices and insignia removed and any tools wired so they could not fall into the sump. We regarded it as a major undertaking because it was a killer inspection in all respects.
I have followed this path to the clearing at the end where the Supreme Court of Ohio has spoken. It goes without saying that I supported the Gibson family throughout in their clash with the woke fucks at Oberlin who never saw any reason to not perceive those that they personally regarded as the enemy as scum and lesser beings not entitled to fair and just treatment. We drove out to Oberlin a couple years ago to simply shop at Gibson's.
Oberlin is a nice enough place but they allowed the impenetrable hate of woke leftism to enter, abide, accrete power and rule the place. I consider it to be almost a model of Mordor. The 'woke' simply refuse to accept any limits on their power to enforce rules on society that don't involve the complete and total destruction, humiliation and annihilation of their enemies.
Well, the School gets to pay $36 million dollars to the Gibson family because 'woke' administrative staff threw all propriety and thought out the window and launched a vicious and racist attack on the blameless bakery.
Do you think the rest of the 'woke' will learn a lesson from that? Yeah, me neither.
Two men encompassed the beginning of the end of the Cold War. Ronald Reagan could not have accomplished the peaceful end without the grounded Russian realist who saw very clearly what the future held if the Cold War went on. Mikhail Gorbachev must have seen not just the hand writing on the wall but the oceans of blood if the War went on as the Soviet Unions red star faded into the mist. He accepted reality. Most of his ilk refused to even consider it much less embrace it and wriggle it to the best possible outcome.
One can almost see the hand of fate, or God, in each of the worlds two options reaching the pinnacle of leadership at the same moment together to end the Proxy Wars of the 20th century and open the Iron Curtain to the West and the forces of Capitalism before Globalism tore most of it all down again. In Reagan we had a statesman of the ages. I don't doubt that he'll rank high on the list of such men even a thousand years from now and the bitter school of hard learning must acknowledge that without a man just exactly like Mikhail Gorbachev it would not have mattered at all what Reagan did. A lot of men always refuse to accept defeat. in Gorbachev we found a man who could.
A lot of the world is recoiling from Globalism and rightly so. It is a deadly philosophy that holds all men hostage by declaring them useless and insignificant. Perhaps. In people such as Tesla I find some hope that not all will proceed down the "enlightened path" of global socialism with the human face provided by the likes of Schwab, Soros and Zuckerberg. Worst comes to worse, none of them actually realize how deep the Spirite of America flows; not just here but everywhere it has reached over the long decades since the founding of the first true Republic since the fall of the Roman Republic.
Into every generation is born the seeds of disaffection of the previous one and my God do the current generation have much to feel great disaffection for since they have born the brunt of the stupidity of the class war, the race war and the gender wars all stirred up by the evil people who embrace all such wars in the name of equity. As most any of the disenfranchised ignored and downtrodden know to their bones, your equity sacrificed equality before the law and in all things in the name of endless war.
Don't worry groomers, they're going to tear you to pieces when they reach their majority and it may look a little more like Europe in 1912 then what you may even think is possible. You have divided them up by arbitrary and stupid rules of "equity" and they will turn those around on you so fast you won't even see it coming.
Sunday, August 28, 2022
As I read this earlier tonight I was struck by the counter-terrorism I engaged in for 30 years. I wonder if you see it like I do. Let us try an experiment. What part of this terrifies you?
Remember when terrorist scumbags entered pharmacies and poisoned the old Tylenol bottles? Think what the true killers could do if they decided to simply inject fentanyl in your daily supermarket purchases. It doesn't take very much.
ONE TON OF FENTANYL SEIZED ON THE BORDER IN JULY. A ton of death that could kill more people then actually live in America.
So the drug dealers cut their drugs with it but that's just the drug dealers. What about all the other things real killers could do with it?
How do you feel about securing the border now? You should ask your Congressman what plans he/she has for keeping all of us safe from this kind of random murder.
I used to commute to Korea monthly or more often. I remember the department stores had shopgirls at every single food stand to make sure you had a pleasant and rewarding shopping experience. Look! Full employment as we deploy people to keep our food in grocery stores safe because our politicians will not secure our borders. They have plenty of money and resources to try to secure the borders in Ukraine but none for us. We don't count.
Saturday, August 27, 2022
Interesting articles today from both The Atlantic, again and Zero Hedge . They're both interesting and tell the story of things in a way calculated to make you wonder. The article by The Atlantic strikes home because, well, it's where I live.
When all else fails, when no amount of made up facts, fake argument or holding their breath until they turn blue works, the liberals always opt to censor speech that they disagree with. They're kind of hateful that way. What really makes them suck is that they feel so brave and adventurous when they're out there swinging the clubs bashing the people who choose to speak up and disagree with them.
Then there was this:
Friday, August 26, 2022
In an interesting piece at Vox the author rabbitted on and on about the poor black man who was apparently malrepresented by counsel during his murder trial. The author goes on to describe all kinds of reasons the current Supreme Court is wrong to not have supported the previoius Court's decision granting the murderer a chance at a new trial and outraged that the Texas court basically recapitulated the entire case and dismissed the previous Supreme Courts decision and resentenced the killer to death. What I found fascinating in the piece is that at no point did Vox ever say what crime the poor little bastard did that got him the death penalty in the first place. I had to look that up.
The other piece is at American Greatnesswritten by Lloyd Billingsly. It pretty much damns the FBI root and branch and Mike Pence for suggesting that those arguing that the FBI should be dissolved are wrong and just as wrong as those idiots that voted to defund the police. As Billingsly points out, Mike Pence could not be more wrong.
Read it and weep and then ponder just what good the FBI is now? I mean, if I was on a jury and the prosecution decided to present evidence derived from FBI sources, labs, or personnel, I'd simply dismiss any such evidence as fabrications and lies. The FBI has wounded its credibility with me and those like me to death which is a shame.
It is further damaging its credibility by going after Project Veritas.
I align with those who think that the entire thing should be retired and for those civil service bureaucrats who have the clout to maintain that they must be maintained on the public payroll long after they have lost the trust of the people, send them to a very plush log cabin somewhere on the North Slope in Alaska and let them practice their dark arts there with zero travel or discretionary funding.
Tuesday, August 23, 2022
When I see ignorant leftists advance ignorance to new horizons I think it might be time for some member in each house to get up and read the whole Constitution and Bill of Rights into the Congressional record. They should not allow the profoundly ignorant idiots to blunder on in total ignorance.
Monday, August 22, 2022
Robert Heinlein wrote about the Crazy Years in several of his books and stories. We seem to have slipped into the Crazy years starting about 10 years ago. Our voyage of the damned is accelerating all the time as we move further and further from reality and truth and in fact have agents dedicated to the destruction of both. In this article in the Washington Examiner we have the following paragraphs:
"Last week, Financial Times Associate Editor Edward Luce tweeted that Republicans are the most “dangerous” political force in the world, bar none. “I’ve covered extremism and violent ideologies around the world,” he said, and “I have never come across a political force more nihilistic, dangerous & contemptible than today’s Republicans. Nothing close.” Former CIA Director Michael Hayden chimed in immediately and said, “I agree.”
This past Tuesday, Democrat adviser Kurt Bardella called all Republicans a “domestic terrorist cell.” MSNBC’s Tiffany Cross agreed and said there should be no distinction between Republicans and “right-wing extremists.” At the same time, Peter Wehner, a contributing writer for The Atlantic, likened the Republican Party to a “dagger pointed at the throat of American democracy.” All this while the FBI Director Christopher Wray added that any American flying the Gadsden — “Don’t Tread On Me” — flag is suspect of violent extremism."
What is remarkable about them is how the highest echelons of government hold all Republicans to be extremists. It's kind of like NPR reporters and news readers who cannot refer to anyone on the other side of the argument as anything but a "far right" or "far right extremist" when all they really mean is that the guy they are demeaning simply doesn't agree with their communist, socialist or Marxist point of view.
I think it's amusing that the oldest commissioned warship in the Navy is directed to fly the original US Navy jack flag. By order of the Secretary of the Navy all USN warships flew this jack after we launched into our War on Terrorism. It is now once again the prerogative of the oldest commissioned ship, USS BLUE RIDGE, flagship of the Commander, Seventh Fleet, based in Japan.
Hardly a bunch of extremists.
Saturday, August 20, 2022
The military has been at war since I joined back in ‘83 and I find it hard to believe that it is possible to get promoted to 4 star general without ever serving in combat. Nevertheless, it seems to happen more frequently now that the 3 and 4 stars hand picked by Clinton and Obama have enjoyed free rein in selecting their replacements over the last 20 years. The Commander of Africa Command where the United States actually has zero strategic interests:
Monday, August 15, 2022
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Friday, July 29, 2022
Thursday, July 28, 2022
Been there done that. Our town squares are little tiny things and there is no great mass of people moving through them at any given time. I wish I had seen this sort of thing at the square or the mall but so far I've missed out on sudden elegance, It takes a city. I had coffee in Amsterdam and watched the parade before picking up the coffee and joining them.
Tuesday, July 26, 2022
The winds were fair out of north haven and we went for a sail in Maine. It was a sturdy crew of 2 and the landlubbers. We managed between us to put the lee rail under water a time or two. Brave words were spoken.....in a half whisper.
I myself was happy to share the little facts of boatage one of which is, when the top of the mast actually hits the water the whole tipping over thing comes to an end and is done although it is a nice dramatic end. Lubbers unimpressed.
Still, fun was had by all.
All sailors are aware, that to end the dramatic tipping one merely needs to let the sheets fly.
Sunday, July 24, 2022
Saturday, July 23, 2022
As I think about it as I read the days news about Europe and the hole their climbing down, I wonder if any of those countries ever bothered to develop and field an External Office of Net Assessment whose sole purpose was to assess the ability of the US military and its leadership to actually follow through on their guarantees of NATO reinforcement. Any rational nation/state would obviously assess and sum up the capabilities of its enemies but it takes a step beyond to also assess, realistically, one's allies capabilities. Those of us who know watched NATO shoot its entire wad at Libya and then run to the US for replenishment of munitions because they not only had no more, they had no capability to even make more. And so they fell in our estimation as 'allies'. There is both a qualitative and quantitative difference between war allies and client states. We in the United States seem to be entirely saddled with client states these days. OTOH, the ROK really don't need us but our airpower and seapower will make the victory over the DPRK more swift but then the ROK are welded to the DPRK in maintaining the exact status quo.
The first time I went to the ROK it was as a Naval War Plans Officer. I did my thing for 2 months and returned to CONUS back in '95. At that time the Aum Sham Rikyo were deploying home made nerve gas on the Japanese subways and the youths in the ROK were rioting vigorously for reunification. As I returned to the ROK over the next 20 years I saw the dramatic decline of youth rioting and youth in favor of reunification with the north. In fact, they have learned to dread it after the fall of the Berlin Wall. They know their GDP and income will be destroyed for decades as they attempt to assimilate the fallen people of the the DPRK and build them up to 'Western Standard' world citizens, if it can be done at all. For those that don't know, the people of the ROK are FIERCLY competitive. Reunification will be a disaster for about 50 years. Whole generations now will need to die off now that the fathers, mothers, brothers and sisters of citizens living in the ROK die off and the ties with relatives in the north dwindle away to nothing.The current generations pay lip service alone to reunification but none want it.
We began with our putative allies in Europe who have ELECTED to go to war with Russia. It almost defies belief. I'm sure Putin has moved Russian industry to full rate production of the Kalibre and other long range missiles and it would only take a single hit on Westminster Palace at Question Time to reveal the United Kingdom as an almost complete paper tiger. Same thing in Paris, Brussels, Strasbourg and even Turtle Bay.
WE have sent our HIMARS and artillery rockets to Ukraine along with 66 billion dollars and now we hear the USAF is interested in sending Ukraine some A-10s because they've been trying to destroy them for over 20 years now. A-10s are a dead letter in an environment teaming with Javelins and superior air defense systems that can drop a fly at 200 miles. Nevertheless, the Air Force sees a chance to finally divest themselves of the single mission tank busters.
So, here we are at the dawn of the 21st century with essentially harmless European allies who were quick to send what little remained of their arms and weapons to Ukraine who have done everything in their power to invite the wrath of Russia and we kicked out 80.000 Army National Guardsmen for refusing to take the killer vaccine and cannot meet recruitment goals for the Army as it wages war only on white supremacy and extremism.
I think it might be time to read the real Prophet again. Robert Heinlein really nailed it with the crazy years and just as I turn and run in unfamiliar places when I hear banjo music (and who doesn't who watched the movie Deliverance), I also scan the papers for mention of Nemiah Scudder and no, that is very definitely not President Trump.
If This Goes On
I found this to be a wonderful read. If you feel like the world has taken a sudden turn you might enjoy this book by Gordon Dickson.
We went out last night and took in Mrs. Harris Goes to Paris. For those who really liked reading Paul Gallico, this was a wonderful picture. It is not action/adventure. It harkens back to another time.
I still follow the news, a bit, in written form. NATO, US and the EU seem to have all gone mad. If somebody set out to destroy the world economy they could not possibly choose a more destructive and hellbent form than we are all now embarked on.
I have to admit I'm still amused by the war profiteers of this age. They make no bones about going all in on gold and precious metals and declaring that they keep them at home where they're safe but still shout aloud about the utter wrongness of the Court on all the Second Amendment stuff. Like the farmers and hoarders who smugly announce that they'll be OK because they raise their own food or stowed away tons of it without any mention of what drives necessity to insane lengths.
I think in the second month of my blog I offered my readers a picture of my little pilot. Much older now and really wants to fly/pilot. Really needs, as I did at nearly that age, to have a good friend who is building multi-engine time for an ATR. You really need to fly to figure out if that really is your calling. I didn't fly at night and only in VFR conditions. I decided early that I didn't want to fly at night or under IFR conditions.
As we camped out in our nice house in New Harbor Maine I was continuously struck by the number of light aircraft I saw flying seaward in single engine planes at sunset. I'll take any sailing vessel or powered vessel offshore at any time day or night and even come back after dark if it has radar. Not an aircraft. They are way more unforgiving.
Friday, July 22, 2022
Thursday, July 21, 2022
Metroparkcentralis was once the sixth richest and most important city in the United States. Fortunately, we have fallen off the grid in the last 100 years. Unfortunately, after delivering one I love to the aiport today I realize that I am only about 6 miles from the Industrial Valley of what remains and it might still be the target of a Russian MIRV. I think it's safe to say that one of the things one can count upon is that Russian missiles work more often than not and MIRVs have a nasty way of engendering widespread destruction.
Still, we had a very nice trip to Maine as we do every year. I have to admit, it will be an engineer from here who works out how to fold space and time so that one can entirely avoid the whole boring I-90 between here and Utica.
Tuesday, July 5, 2022
Sunday, July 3, 2022
Wednesday, June 29, 2022
Monday, June 27, 2022
I once lived at Picatinny Arsenal in New Jersey. One of the things that struck me as I rode or ran around the installation was the preserved buildings that were in lay-up just in case we ever needed to make a massive number of artillery projectiles again. They'd been laid up either since the Korean War or World War I. They were old. I realize this is not how we produce our artillery ammunition anymore but it does weigh on my mind. I don't think the United States could begin to match 60,000 artillery rounds and missile/day.
It's easy to say that artillery is no longer the King of Battle and point to aviation and cruise missiles. I honestly don't know what happens when bomblets blanket an artillery position. I imagine it would shred the tires and ding the tube but I don't know if they would outright destroy modern Russian artillery or not. The cannon cockers will be dead but the tubes may well keep going. There is also a not inconsiderable air defense network. I think the Russians have studied our employment of the Air/Land Battle techniques over the last 30 years and have probably come up with some ideas for mitigating or even defeating it. The defeat might take a simple form that we won't expect in a million years. Yep, they'll rain Kalibre and other missiles down on the airfields a thousand miles away and destroy all those aircraft right there on the ground where it's easy.
I have to admit,I keep waiting for the retaliation any country would and can deliver to allies of its enemy. It's one thing to covertly pass along weapons and intel but to boast about doing both in public in a press conference, well, your position has been established. You are now a combatant.
Sunday, June 26, 2022
Artice X: The powers not delegated to the United States by the Constitution, nor prohibited by it to the States, are reserved to the States respectively, or to the people.
Those idiots in Congress keep forgetting the States and the People. No surprise, they're all fascists.
Saturday, June 25, 2022
I looked to see what the riots were like tonight but it seems there is nowhere near the depth of support for killing babies as most people thought there was. Right now it looks like another damp squib. Do I think some nutjob will try to kill a Justice in 'retaliation'? Absolutely. It's interesting how Joe Biden came out and described abortion as a CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHT but seems as ignorant as ever he was about anything and everything. People wondered that the Court didn't release both decisions yesterday but I see into the matrix now. The 2nd Amendment faded entirely away as the media shifted targets to embrace abortion 24/7. It's like all their prepared arguments about how the blood would be running in the streets now that New Yorkers who aren't criminals have a RIGHT to carry a weapon for self defense.
I'll be interested to see what tomorrow brings. For me it will be the Highland Games!
Wednesday, June 15, 2022
Tuesday, June 14, 2022
Sunday, June 12, 2022
I don't care either democrats. I'm not going to miss NY NY or DC or San Francisco and yeah, I lived in them all.
If you would like to see where something like 3000 Russian nuclear weapons are targeted, it's available on line. It will give you nightmares as you start to co=-rationalize that you think Putin is a psycho with cancer and nothing to live for but you go for it. After all, you also think man made global warming is real.
The number of nuclear warheads they have changes every now and but they had 5700 the last time I looked and cared. Not a bomb specialist, I hear they degrade over time. Not a nuclear engineer, it's the material.
An enemy really doesn't have to ship them ballistically. They can use UPS.
Saturday, June 11, 2022
Thursday, June 9, 2022
Wednesday, June 8, 2022
Sunday, June 5, 2022
By Matthew Arnold
The sea is calm tonight. The tide is full, the moon lies fair Upon the straits; on the French coast the light Gleams and is gone; the cliffs of England stand, Glimmering and vast, out in the tranquil bay. Come to the window, sweet is the night-air! Only, from the long line of spray Where the sea meets the moon-blanched land, Listen! you hear the grating roar Of pebbles which the waves draw back, and fling, At their return, up the high strand, Begin, and cease, and then again begin, With tremulous cadence slow, and bring The eternal note of sadness in.
Sophocles long ago Heard it on the Ægean, and it brought Into his mind the turbid ebb and flow Of human misery; we Find also in the sound a thought, Hearing it by this distant northern sea.
The Sea of Faith Was once, too, at the full, and round earth’s shore Lay like the folds of a bright girdle furled. But now I only hear Its melancholy, long, withdrawing roar, Retreating, to the breath Of the night-wind, down the vast edges drear And naked shingles of the world.
Ah, love, let us be true To one another! for the world, which seems To lie before us like a land of dreams, So various, so beautiful, so new, Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light, Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain; And we are here as on a darkling plain Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight, Where ignorant armies clash by night.
Saturday, June 4, 2022
Friday, June 3, 2022
Tuesday, May 31, 2022
Thank You each and every one of you. You rule.
I hadn't realized that there are a lot of people alive today who never heard of the Red Zone or knew that parts of France were still no go zones a hundred years after the war ended there.
Monday, May 30, 2022
On the gripping hand, I don't actually believe much of what I see in the media today. For some reason, all those drone kill shots dropped right out of history as Russia got involved in playing war for the first time in 70 years.
Sunday, May 29, 2022
I read the full report of the Investigation into matter iN MSRON 12 while deployed to UAE and what struck me was the nature of the investigation. At no point at all did it ever address whether the squadron was combat effective in the conflict zone in the Persian Gulf. The entire investigation delved into whether the CO was mean and whether he had failed to comply with various administrative filings that would best be laid at the feet of his Admin Officer.
Dave took the hit, got sacked and terminated wtih extreme prejudice.
I had done something new at the time. At 42 I got married for the first time and had a daughter. The formerly motivated sailor was now not slacking off but disregarded all his friends who urged him to take squadron command. I wasn't going to do that because I knew what it would cost me in my life. As it happens, I could have done it since in the end marriage was not apparantly something I was any good at since I was still a staff officer and commuted to Korea at least once a month for years and this proved incompatible with a strife free life.
As the Operations Officer for the West Coast Maritime Expeditionary Security Forces, I knew Dave got sacked but I thought it was for something worthy. Reading the report of the Investigator, he didn't stay 100% on top of the admin ball and he was frustrated that he had incompetent subordinates. Been there, done that, got the medal.
All of this is from 10 years ago but the language of the Investigator and Tillotson and NECC makes me sure and certain that we don't really have any warfighters at any level of the Navy anymore. We basically have cud chewing cows out there running the Navy and nothing will change until they get Pearl Harbored, again.
Saturday, May 28, 2022
Children do learn and what will we say as a society when kids start to bring guns to school to protect themselves and their classmates since it's a given that the police won't protect them?
How much longer are the idiots to remain in charge and continue to forbid armed teachers and staff? Oh sure, there are an awful lot of people out there that should never pick up a gun but there are many who can and will. The cops totally fucked up another school massacre as badly as the worthless Broward cops. Every single law enforcement agency needs a 'come to Jesus after action' to emphasize that there are never any grounds whatsoever to not immediately rush in when there is a shooter in the school. I thought every cop shop would have made this point years ago and refreshed it every year. I guess I expected too much of them. God knows the parents thought so too.
Tuesday, May 24, 2022
Wednesday, May 18, 2022
Keep in mind that NATO is a military defense organization that binds the members to come to the immediate defense of any member that is attacked. About the only member of NATO today that has anything like an effective military is Turkey and why would they commit themselves to a possible war with Russia for the Europeans who despise them? I'm not sure I can think of a reason for Turkey to approve admitting Finland and Sweden despite how friendly they have been towards the idea of Turkey becoming a member of the EU.
It's kind of amusing to me. Turkey is the full heir of the Ottoman Empire, the Sick man of Europe as it was known for a century and it tried quite valiantly to make its case for membership in the EU but the thugocracy wouldn't have anything to do with them except rely upon them for 100% of NATO's defense in the south during the whole Cold War.
Erdogan strikes me as very Middle Eastern in many respects but perhaps the leading characteristic he shares with his pals in Syria, Lebanon, the Palestinian Territories and other dismal places like that is his absolute inability to forgive and forget. I think he'll veto NATO membership for excellent and sound reasons and also to give the EU and the Germans the finger.
What a strange world they live in in their exclusive enclaves.
Sunday, May 15, 2022
Did Putin turn off the gas that Europe absolutely needed this winter even as every idiot there postured and prattled? Nope.
Did even one single NATO member start to increase the readiness of their military forces as their leaders started to lay the ground work for a totally unnecessary war with Russia? Nope.
Did the United States government attempt to remind everyone that Russia was the sole heir of the nuclear arsenal of the Soviet Union and that a good bit still worked and even if they decided not to use it themselves, they might as well start selling a few here and few there with handy instruction books printed in Arabic, Farsi, Tamil, Irish and few other languages? I thought not.
They'll all be so surprised one night to be told that Kiev isnt there anymore. And I'm sure that there isn't a soul in any government in the West that has prepared for that eventuality. Can you imagine the Senile Idiot in Chief thinking ahead? How about the feckless Boris living at #10? What about Macron who thinks if it looks good it must be good. That's it folks. Those are the nuclear armed powers in NATO and they're all out there in Poland and Ukraine swanning around as if their brave military show means anything at all to a man they've left very little to lose.
And worst of all, they don't know it.
Thursday, May 12, 2022
Sunday, May 8, 2022
Friday, May 6, 2022
Thursday, May 5, 2022
We used to teach people 'civics' in school. I got my fill of them with the nuns, with the assistant football coach teaching Alabama State History and with countless other teachers who taught young people that this was a republic and taught us the nuts and bolts about how it was supposed to work. They never really got into the graft and corruption but they did lay out the fundamental principles much as one would talk about the laws of thermodynamics.
I really don't think anybody does that anymore. That is probably not a good thing. In fact, I'd venture to say it is a very bad thing. I really don't think people want to be in a society that has decided that the best way to lead is to outthug the rest.
I didn't expect to live in a kzin society.
Tuesday, May 3, 2022
The omnipotent left just woke up to a fact I've been laughing about for about 40 years.
ROE V WADE is not actually a law. It was a court decree but nobody in the last 40 years thought about what overturning a court decision absent a law would do. OH NOW they are scrambling in election season to put those things on the books and make a right to "privacy" lawful and God damn those who won't bow and praise the left. Poor bastards. They thought they could continue as they have gone on and just push this behind them. We will see.
Oh yeah, I'm wrong. Every single time a name for the supreme court came up in the last 40 years the wingers came out of the wings in a perfect frenzy of hatred. You notice of course that what they mostly failed to do was to try to legislate. What they hated was what they got.
I have stood there in the Jefferson Memorial in the morning and the evening and looked up and decided as a young man, a serving officer, a man with a lifetime behind him to go along with the words written there. They were good words. They are carved in stone all around the dome. Written in stone.
"I have sworn upon the altar of God eternal hostility against every form of tyranny over the mind of man."
As we read earlier, FAITH is what guides us. The absence of faith is also a guide but to a lesser place and a poorer realm.
Those on the left believe in stupid transient things. The rest of us take a note from the bible from time to time but almost all of us believe in the 10 commands from on high. One of the things historians have noted is that one really cannot build a civilization without them.
Monday, May 2, 2022
By lex, on December 11th, 2003
One man’s journey from the mechanical through the metaphysical to the spiritual.
My father was a southern Baptist, a merchant sailor twice divorced before he married my mom. She was a member of the Roman Catholic Church from the coal mining valleys of Pennsylvania, where she learned from her mother that “dirty black Protestant” was essentially one word. She divorced her first husband as a drinker, gambler and abuser, back in the days when good Catholic girls from the Pennsylvania valleys didn’t do that – instead they bore babies, and bore up. She took her two young daughters with her when she left, to Washington, D.C. to make her way in the world. The year was 1944, and it simply wasn’t done. In time, my parents met, they wooed, and they wed. And in time, I was born.
He being a Baptist, she Catholic, they compromised and decided that mixture made me Episcopalian. The Episcopal Church had all the ceremony of the Catholic convention, with none of the guilt – it was Catholic-light. My mom could close her eyes and feel at home. For my father, it meant at least that we weren’t Papists – it’s amusing to reflect these days that such divisions and classifications as my parent’s generation felt as viscerally as the air they breathed are nearly meaningless among the faithful today, at least as far as I can tell. Your car is blue? I prefer red. And so on.
I was raised in the “high” church – an incense-filled sanctuary of choral Eucharists and lovely teenage girls in Sunday-go-to-meeting dresses whose chastity and piety evoked in me a response that was very far from sacred in my own teenage years. I was an acolyte, or altar boy – fortunately the Anglican Church allows their priesthood to wed, so I was spared the indignities that have attended such service in other quarters, about which well enough has been said. As an acolyte, you are immersed in the mechanics of faith – just how and when to present the gifts, to ring the bell, to wash the dishes, as it were. A layer of the sacred curtain is pulled back, and you catch a glimpse of the little man at the controls.
And again, there were those lovely young ladies. I was conflicted – try to keep thinking about how He suffered for us and our sins, when what you’re really hoping is that the rays of sunlight arcing through the stained-glass windows might catch that summer dress in just the right way. I felt guiltily like a wolf among the sheep. I considered myself a relatively intelligent, logical young man – and the inconsistencies of faith, all faith, and the arrogance of youth combined in me to create a level of deep skepticism. I spoke to one of my priests, and told him that I was undergoing a crisis of faith – how was all of this to be believed? He told me to read the Bible, to think on what was witnessed therein, to realize that if it all could be proven scientifically, then faith would be unnecessary, and virtue would be mandatory – therefore not virtuous at all, but merely self-interested. Where would free will be in all of that? It seemed to me small beer, pat, perhaps even rehearsed.
My parents died within four months of each other when I was 21. How could a just and loving God have taken them away like that, so quickly? I was angry, and so very certain of my own perfection of thought, and being – what need did I have of these petty-bourgeois sensibilities? I was my own man; I would craft my own morality, and like Ulysses I would drink life to the lees.
It’s amazing what you can rationalize as being moral, when you have cut yourself free of millennia of burdensome restrictions on personal behavior. Even secular humanism is simply the tyranny of some fractionally superior number of people who believe that we should all act in this way, rather than that. Could not 50.1% of the popular vote be wrong? It was not enough for me. Farewell to all that, forever and ever, amen. Life has a way of wearing away at you though – we won’t all be President.
In my 30’s out of mere curiosity I took up the reading of philosophy, which in the beginning at least, with the Greeks, was dedicated to determining, “what is a good life, and how do I lead it?” That was before the modern study of philosophy degenerated into a game of making words mean something other than what they evidently were meant to say, by way of being dense and inaccessible to the masses. So that Sartre could eventually speak of “freedom” and “nausea” in the same breath, and the cognoscenti could nod, knowingly. So I experimented with existentialist philosophy for a bit – who has looked into the abyss, and not felt it looking back into him? Sartre spoke of standing on the edge of a precipice and being afraid – not that you might fall, but that you might jump. An intriguing idea, but as a philosophy of living one’s life, it leaves very much to be desired. You might do as well to blow your head off, than live a life where all the world’s joy and pain are uniquely yours to create or un-create with the opening and closing of your own eyes.
But in reading philosophy, I also came to understand that religion too was a philosophical worldview. It was a way of understanding the world, and interacting meaningfully with it. I had been raised a Christian, and my Weltanschauung was informed by those lessons I only scarcely thought I heard growing up. I was not yet a believer, but I understood.
And the big bang theory didn’t exactly do it for me either. Who lit the fuse? How could everything have come from nothing? How could Mozart develop inexorably from dust, to brilliance and back to dust again? Was there no guidance or intelligence behind this design, just a random collection of cold chemicals that somehow became animated, became alive? A lightning bolt came down to earth and hit a pool of water and created a single cell organism, which eventually became me? Really? Does our science understand how to do this? And what is on the other side of infinity, the place where our finite minds cannot reach? Who lives there? Was this really all there was?
So the questions didn’t go away, they just became other questions, all of them unanswerable. In choosing no faith, I had still chosen to believe in something that could not be proven. It was an anti-faith, existing not because of anything really, but in spite of something. And it was still contradictory.
In time I fell in love, and got married, and along came children of my own.
Suddenly it wasn’t really all about me, anymore.
In my business, I’ve had the occasion to speak to men who spent five, six, even seven years as guests of the People’s Republic of Vietnam in the Hanoi Hilton. They had faced unbelievable hardships in the prison camps, and somehow come through. I asked them how they survived, when all there was to life was torture, pain and suffering, no guarantee it would ever be any different. They all recalled that the one thing that got them through was their faith. Soldiers know that there are no atheists in the fighting hole, when the artillery is coming in. Throughout recorded time, people have used their faith to get them through the hard times; times that most of us will face in our lives, and all of us will face at the end of them.
So could I deny my children this avenue of relief, through my own solipsism? Could I be sure that their lives would be perfect? Anyone raised in the arms of the community of the faithful might one day decide rationally that it is all so much piffle, for the weak-minded only. But who among us, having been denied the keys to this place of internal strength and solace, will even look for the door if they have not been exposed to it in their youth? And all of us, I think, look for some larger meaning and context to our lives – the spiritual in the beauty of the rose, in the sunset, in the love of a good woman, in the smile of your child. Having been denied the collective wisdom of our culture, will they cast about instead for meaning inside the new age spiritualism of yoga, vegetarianism and green tea? Not that these are bad things, for those who choose them – but choice presupposes knowledge of value, the ability to compare and contrast with some degree of perception. The children must learn of faith from the inside, in order to make an informed decision to go out.
So, we went back to church. And in fact, I found that listening to the readings of the old, old books, gave me insights into the physical world and world of people and their interactions that I had not noticed I was missing. I felt a better person.
There was time to reflect upon your week behind you, and make promises to yourself about the week to come. And this was a good philosophy: to love the lord your God (in other words to believe in something more important and larger than yourself) with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind, and to love your neighbor as yourself. On these two commandments, we were instructed, hung all the laws and the prophets. There were nice folks there, too. So I felt a better person, but I did not yet believe.
Some years later I was driving down to Miramar, California from Fallon, Nevada, on one of the more Godforsaken (forgive me) stretches of road in the western United States. I came to a part of this road that had undulating hills, just as a fog rolled in. I was driving far too quickly, but it was late and I had hours yet to go before I could rest. Suddenly, in the pool of diffuse light cast by my headlamps at the crest of a small hill, I saw an enormous and ghostly-gray crucifix rise up from the ground, wheeling towards me – the symbolism was clear: I was about to die, this was my forewarning. And the thing that surprised me even as I felt it was not that my forewarning had come in the sacred form thus presented, but that I hadn’t seen the cause of my death coming – what had I missed? Was I about to run off the road, get hit by a truck, suffer a stroke? I looked around wildly, trying to see what it might be.
It was nothing of course – I am still here, still typing. The “crucifix” was merely a roadside power line truss, the wheeling effect created by the rise of my headlamps as I crossed over the hill in the fog, an illusion. I laughed to myself.
But with hours to go before I got to where I was going, I had this thought to turn over in my head: It was not the symbol that surprised me at all – I saw it and interpreted it immediately, unquestioningly. I knew what it meant. I believed.
There is a kind of logic here too, the logic of faith: It seems to me that taken logically, there are only two possible positions, binary: there either is a God, or there is not. I have said that I cannot believe that everything came from nothing, and concede that we cannot understand that which we cannot understand, what is on the other side of infinity, e.g. So I must believe through faith in that which cannot be demonstrated to be true, God’s presence, and reject through faith that which also cannot be demonstrated to be true – the absence of God. It is a choice I make.
And in this choice, there are only three possible positions: that God loves us, that he hates us, or that he is indifferent. If he hated us, we would know – this would in fact be hell. Between indifference and love, I choose to believe in love.
And if God loves us he loves us perfectly (or otherwise he would not be perfect, therefore not be God), what greater love could he show, than to give his only Son, to the end that all that believe in him should not suffer, but have life everlasting?
No, I am not now a perfect man, a perfect Christian, even a perfect Episcopalian (if there is such a thing). I am a work in progress. But in this faith is my philosophy of what is a good life, and how to live it. It is what I was raised in, and is as good a revelation as any other, far better than some. There is much beauty in it, much that is challenging, some things that I can scarcely bear to think of.
But taken as a whole, it is good.