Sunday, November 11, 2018


I used to carry but it was in its holster by my side and for use on the enemy should he come calling and outside these United States of America.

I never carried at home in these United States and perhaps my reasons were selfish. I did not ever want to be the subject of a law suit and just about every use of a gun that leaves a living corpse ends in a lawsuit.

People I know carry and I have no problems with that. What I figured to do was to avoid going to those places that made carry a practical and necessary form of dress. I just don't go to any place that I think will feature armed killers. This is somewhat harder to do now that schools, colleges and theaters are such places.

I am also, now, 29 years older than I ever thought I would be. I have, by and large, done what I came to do and if the exit is shown via a gun wielded by an enemy, that's not really anything new for me. I so don't want to lose my mind and slip into dementia and senility. I watch in quiet despair as the smartest man I ever knew slips away moment by moment. He was the smartest man I ever knew and taught quantum physics at West Point in a gap year after getting his Masters Degree and building a nuclear reactor in a swimming pool as a break from fighting the war in Vietnam.

OTGH, I almost always carry a locking blade knife whenever I leave the house. As the reader can see, closing in for a kill in a terminal attack is still an option. Short of a shot to the head, I figure I can reach or die trying.


  1. I'm not carrying as much as I did, but still have a worthy blade to hand.
    Dementia taking it's toll is not an easy thing to watch. I am forever thankful that dad was sharp as ever even at the end.

    1. It is the ones you love that hurt the most when the flowers come for Algernon. A man who could really build a nuclear weapon in his bathroom slipping away. It hurts. I think to myself, I'll just step off the planet come the moment I feel it going away. OTGH, a stroke out of nowhere could put paid to my exit strategy.

      I had seen the end and nothing about it lingering on was pretty or of any interest to me.